...my music

http://grooveshark.com/playlist/Jitinagarwal+s+Playlist+1/39430330

My Ever After

We all remember the bed time stories of our childhood. The shoe fit Cinderella, the frog was turned into a prince, sleeping beauty was awakened with a kiss. Once upon a time and then they lived happily ever after. Fairy tales. The stuff of dreams. the problem is, fairy tales don't come true. It's the other stories. The ones that start in dark and stormy nights and end in the unspeakable. The nightmares always seem to become the reality.


....the person that invented the phrase 'happily Ever after' should have his ass kicked SO HARD !!!

My Cause

you always have choices !


ask most people what they want from / out of life...and more often then not you will get same answer. "to be happy"


maybe its the expectation though - the wanting to be happy ...keeps us from getting there.


coming back to choices... 


how you decide is your right. how does it matter if your choice was a bad one it is YOUR choice. its no ones business.

My Words

A linguistic form that can meaningfully be spoken in isolation Conversation....

expression....

a promise....

a sigh ! In short, a lie

A message from heaven, a signal from hell 

I give you my word I'll never tell
 
Language that is used in anger ! 

Personal feelings signaling danger  

A brief remark, an utterance, information

Don't mince words, don't be evasive. Speak your mind, be persuasive
A pledge, a commitment, communication, words !!

My DNR

"Did you say it? 'I love you. I don't ever want to live without you. You changed my life.' Did you say it? Make a plan. Set a goal. Work toward it, but every now and then, look around; Drink it in 'cause this is it. It might all be gone tomorrow."

Another Year

an hour later.. the snow really started to fall..the first time that winter..and it didn't stop. The city was SILENT, there were no more questions only white noise !!

they say a life unexamined is not worth living... but what if the examining becomes your life...is that living or just procastinating. is it time to stop questions ?? !!

with one more year down it feels like a lot of time has gone by or in other words in a blink of an eye !

My Horcrux

was watching harry poter ATHBP... ya again (hmmm not sure how many times i must have seen it by now)

coming to the point ! or rather '7' was wondering about horcrux's for those of you are not a HP fan ;( here is the wiki definition of the horcrux

A Horcrux is a fictional magical object in the Harry Potter series by J. K. Rowling. It is a Dark Magic device created to attain immortality. The concept is first introduced in the sixth novel, Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince, though Horcruxes are present in earlier novels without being identified as such. Rowling uses the character Horace Slughorn to introduce their properties. The retrieval and destruction of Lord Voldemort's Horcruxes forms the main focus of the final two books in the series, Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince and Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows.

come to think of it we all have horcruxes dont we... and in real life we have more than 7. we / others leave footprints (memories well more bad than good) on each other thereby making ourselves immortal (so to speak).

what happens when someone tries to rubbish your memory with others once you've left do you actually go back in time and correct every perception or just say f**k it (keeping it clean hehehe)...

then there are those times when you actually feel you had'nt met / known a few people EVER.. or they would not be carrying your horcrux for you. i hope sometime in the future there is a brain explorer wherein one could simply delete the parts (files / folders) well not delete PURGE the parts which are now full of virus'

anyway enough bout horcruxes.. :)

My Fav's

Wanted to list down a few of my fav video's and which other video to start with... if you are a splitsvilla fan u'd know this one

http://www.savevid.com/video/theme-song-for-mtv-splitsvilla-by-agnee.html
more to come...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5HSS8qeOFJw&feature=fvst
My LIFE ANTHEM ;)

My Pictures

Yea this one is NOT a blog per say...but as they say [who ???]

a picture is worth a thousand bucks

http://picasaweb.google.com/jitinagarwal

My Single Serve Life

was having breakfast yesterday on my latest trip. somehow I'm highly amused and intrigued whenever i travel abroad and see everything which we normally take for granted being served to us in a single serve portion / ration..

does everything in life goes by the fundamental of 'one size fits all' or can we expect a custom fit (not expecting the tailor to come home or something). if indeed it is the case of one size fits all then is it even worth running behind getting the one who fits u the best.

in the pursuit of the custom tailored my best fit...is it possible that we're so blind in the race that we seldom even pick up the single [standard] serve and see if it can fit ? 

who decides how much is enough...like who in the hell decides how much sugar is ENOUGH in that single serve...or for that matter how much of the dairy milk powder thingy..

when a single is just not enough what is one suppose to do...ask for a couple more OR just compromise with a smile on your face and a 'thank you so much'. why cant we be honest [well not rude] but honest enough to ourselves to admit that what is acceptable v/s just not. 

or is it ok to stop expecting the custom fit to walk into our life and just accept the STANDARD single serve. ;)

hmmm posting it @ this time...will refine it once I'm back home

anyway dont plan to complete this post sitting here at the Omaha aiport waiting for my 'single' flight slipping away to a infinity of delay from 1240 pm to NOW 1440 pm (at least thats what it say's) (had promised my self that i would be using a hell lot of LESS brackets going forward)

My Untitled

yep this one is untitled... for the basic reason...i got to thinking (someone ...actually someone hooked me up with this girl yesterday nite (blind date n me hmmm) anyway. i met this girl n she asked me a question..

TELL ME SOMETHING ABOUT YOURSELF !!!! @#$%^^ [that's me abusing ;)]

That kind of question one should not be allowed to think let alone be asked out loud. I surely started by answering bout 'what i do' and somehow i stopped dead in the tracks [rite in the middle of my statement]

when did ""what we do became,"" who we are ????

thinking more about the subject over the weekend i got more confused bout how does one differentiate between the thin or non existence line between who we are and what we do..when did we let our work become who we are...

i distinctly remember back in college [which now seems like a zillion years ago] inspite of college / work / niit / practicals i would still time find to mix up some music [or in toher words do something which defined, (ar atlest what i tought) me] -- side note use less number of brakcets :)

some where long the line we all decide who we are going to be ! have we ever stopped to take stock of where we thought we shld have been by now versus have we even left the starting point. or is it better to just drift along the path where things / relationships / situations are not labeled BUT JUST left UNTITLED for the time being atleat.

so coming back to the haunting date..i changed the topic and thought no harm lets see if i'm the only lost one with the answer. and asked her the same thing. and that was the END of it !! i was stunned by how people can easily define who they are and NOT mention one word bout their work !

so in the pursuit of finding an answer to the question i drove home :)

My One More Year

Funny spending more time in a city / company / with yourself is suppose to make you more wiser / mature. Nevertheless a recurring feeling which i get as i get older (recently had my b'day) is the more you spend time with urself the more you can count the following. non of them 'ironically' have anything to do with getting wiser

u can count the number of fights you've had
the number of breakup's ...which keep on mounting year on year

In Cricket im sure my life time score would be a real bad one. fielding at a real bad position somewhere in addition to down the line in batting (to add to the irony)

but there are a few things which one could add in the positive side as well

more aware of whom and what (:)) to say
more wisdom in terms of what is NOW OFFICIALLY boring
which pubs are so mundane that even the bouncers know u by name

At the end of the year...you are still left wondering if it is an end of an era. which it could very well may be. and then go head strong into the next one with loads of resolutions (non of them u actually wanted to keep in the first place) loads of hope / loads of regret baggage which you carry forward more like a savings account in a bank

One can even hope for a clean slate every year and then again do we really want one

My Echo !

Only sometimes do you hear a echo, well in the run from a morning routine of having to bathe to cursing :) why did you get up in the first place. But there are times if you listen close enough or in a rare occasion you cannot run from a echo.

It can be a name ;)) which someone utters NOT knowing what that name / word means to you or what it would mean if it is associated with yours. Echo of a memory buried (forgotten) deep - which took a LOT of shoveling and a bit of forgetting where you buried it.

Memories have a way of working their way from the past and seeking up on us. Then it can be : -

• a time of the day (6.30pm to be precise)
• or someone fighting for your time.
• You run out of a smoke (at 2am) and the ONLY person you can borrow it from is the person who won't give you one

Anywho (again need to be a scrubs fan to know this hehehe) echo's can haunt us but when we decide to punch a hole in the wall is the time when we can choose which echo's you actually want to be reminded of.

My Wrong !

Sometimes, you have to make a BIG mistake to know that you're making one in the first place...only THEN can you turn it around, by doing the right (which you should have done it in the first place - duh ;) )

But with mistakes, you always have to remember one thing ! the ones which you are aware of u can amend and make right or in some cases even make do. And then there are those mistakes, which you never knew you made (committed i guess would be the correct grammar). Now these are the best ones !! in the beginning its difficult for any of us to admit a mistake / a wrong which we never thought we could / have done.

Towards the beginning when we are made aware of our wrong doing it sometimes (heheh actually always) takes us time to digest the fact that we did commit one. And you know the worst part is yet to follow - YES :) the realization bit of it. And believe me not a small bit ;D

My infinity

Somebody sedate me!! :)

Some times reality has a way of sneaking up and biting us in the ass

And when the damn bursts, all you can do is swim. The world of pretence is a cage not a cocoon we can only lie to us for so long.

We are tired we are scared denying it doesn’t change the truth. Sooner or later (the sooner the better) we have to put aside our denial and face the world head on guns blazing.

Denial it’s not just a river in Egypt it’s a freaking ocean so how does u keep from drowning in it?

My Boundaries

well we can always draw line, but we need to remember one thing 'boundaries don't keep people out they just FENCE you in'

in life you always try to draw lines
there are lines which we cross everyday - knowing we'd be stepping on someone's toes when we do so
Then there are those lines which we wait for -

• Waiting in line for a promotion
• Waiting for that someon to call
• Waiting for the mc'right (:) u'll understand this if u're a die hard fan for grey's anatomy)
• Waiting for a weekend @ 11am on a Monday (then when the weekend finally arrives - u're bored to death)

then there are those lines which we wish would have never cross as opposed to those that are so far now that they seem like a dot

LIFE... A glass half full OR something to that extent

Well when you want to start something since long I suggest you go ahead and do it. It can be anything gym, running, working or for that matter even starting your own blog. Having said that i would like to start my own someday - i used to think. I hope i actually complete this one.

Don't know off late this weird feeling that nothing is going right. i wonder if it is a global occurrence that a team member JUST DOES NOT get along with his / her team lead. i have a very pic of a baby praying with his hands closed and it goes something like this ..

dear god, i beg you to..
give me wisdom to understand my boss
give me patience to understand his actions
BUT please don't give me strength...bcuz if you do I WILL BREAK HIS SKULL :)

I know what you're thinking, what the hell is this image doing here.. EJACTLY sometimes when i have a tiff with my boss i am just left wonder where the hell is all that anger coming from :). It is quite amusing that the things of which you are most proud of are the things ur boss ends up hating the most.

Was watching Grey's Anatomy just some time back ! today the main couple had to put down thier dog to sleep (kill their dog) cuz he had cancer. I recently got a stray dog home, and got attached instantly.. but now its been a couple of months and i have to give it up... :(

Its like the attachment you have with some things / some people in life. And then you go about going your own way. its almost like Not Worth It. I for one some time back totally threw myself in work and avoided all my friends.. the reasoning i have it if you invest your time in work you get definite returns not the same case with relationships though :|